Aimee
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Christopher
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Where do I begin?
Your testimony, is the story about the rest of your life in my books,
it’s my story on why I believe what I believe, and how God came into my
life to heal me of my sins.
I can't tell you I lived the worst life in the world, that would be an
ignorant lie, there are people who suffered far worse than I have, and
at the same time, there are people who have it a whole lot better than I
have, I guess life isn't about what everyone else has, its about what
you do with what you have.
I was thrown out into the streets by my birth mother, who clearly didn't
want me, and wasn't mature enough to know how to deal with the
situation, leaving me for dead on the streets.
I was taking into the hospital, I was then nursed back to health, and
put into an orphanage, under a wonderful woman that I still have very
fond memories of, even though it was from a time early in my life, I was
adopted by a great couple, who took good care of me, you will see their
pics on my site, they were my parents, and they treated me pretty good.
I can't say that I had the best of time growing up, but it was great
none the less, friends, video games.
I had a sister who was overly abusive, who made growing up in the house
a living hell from the way that she treated my parents and I, because of
her own mental issues, weather it was when she felt like getting
physical, or just her mouthy ness, or her trade marked selfishness, it
was something that I to this day have a resentment for, I tend to be a
family guy, and I have an issue with people who abuse family.
When I was younger, I was half forced into joining the Air Cadets,
because it was what my father was in, I had some great times, and
learned a lot of things, though I did have to suffer through issues of
abuse, sexual abuse, from homosexual pedophiles, which even to this day
I wont really talk to much about it, but it did really hurt me deeply.
Growing up past that, I had entered into many different relationships,
many of them didn't really grow healthy, but hey you live and learn.
And for the most part, I did turn to alcoholism, and eventually into
marijuana, not that I did it a whole lot, but I did do it, for the most
part it was alcoholism, and man I can remember from my young teens till
I was about 24, that I drank daily, a lot, and it really affected my
life.
When I got into college, it was in such an isolated place, that I just
followed everyone else, and I got into things so badly, and yeah, I do
realize that I have an addictive personality; most people will tell you
that.
Then something else grew into my heart and mind that really did
something horribly wrong, the spirit of depression came among me, and
amongst my depression and everything else that was going on in my life,
it turned me suicidal, over personal things that were going on in my
life, personal tragedies and just everything in my past that finally hit
me all at once like a sledge hammer just slamming me I was ready to
commit suicide.
And it was a dear friend who was able to show me Christ, in a moment
that I chosen to kill myself, it was a moment that God came into my
life.
Times have changed and things have come and go, but God is my Lord and
master, and that I will never let go of.
I have learned many things in my life, and I have come to accept a lot
of truths.
Christianity has nothing to do with Church, and I think God has had to
show me the hard way for me to understand this.
Some Churches don't understand the term worship.
Some Churches don't know how to stop fighting with their families long
enough to deal with their congregation.
Some Churches just want your money.
Some Churches judge before they even literally speak to someone.
Some Churches are stuck on tradition.
Some Churches want to go New Age.
Some Churches don't understand what coming into the family of God means.
Some Churches are good for you, and others will tear you spiritually
down.
No Church ever tries to hurt a single person, and should not be
condemned for it, but rather prayed for.
I love God, and how I thank him for all that he has done for me in my
life, because with out God, I would not be here.
For anyone who has ever wondered what being a Christian is all about, I
would tell them, it's about admitting that by God's standards that you
are a sinner, and lets be honest with each other, this really isn't an
easy thing to do, no one likes to admit that, but it is reality, it is
the truth, we have all sinned, and for our own sake, we need to admit
that.
Then it is all about understanding that Jesus died on the cross at
Calvary for you, for your sins, he allowed mankind (that is you and I)
to put him there, torture and kill him.
Then you need to understand and believe that on the 3rd day, Jesus
raised from the dead, to defeat the cost of sin, Jesus, the one person
who walked this earth as God on earth died, and rose to life again on
the 3rd day, so that you may one day accept what he has done for you so
that you may some day make atonement for your sins with God, and made
your way to Heaven.
After you can accept this, just ask God to come into your heart, and
then he is with you.
From there, it’s about trying to develop yourself, to become closer to
Christ, and your personal relationship with him.
That is just it, sin keeps you away from him, but if you work on
developing and growing from that your personal relationship with him
grows.
It's not about Church, its all about you and God.
I do believe that a Church can be awesome to help you with that, and it
is very important, but remember you worship God, not a pastor or Church.
